Don't waste your life you freakin' moron!

Life------

It's such an odd thing. Always changing, never the same. The constant motion of life is what makes it so intriguing.

Having been on this earth for 18 years, one week and 3 days, I have concluded two things:

1. I have accomplished a lot.

2. I have accomplished nothing.

Yes, those two contradict one another----that's the point. So far I have had a very full life..... or so I like to think. I have had the opportunity to experience more things than many people ever get to in their entire life. On the other hand, I feel as though there is more I could be doing (like I have said a million times before).

The day of my 18th birthday was one I had dread for 17 years and 364 days. I woke that morning in a horrible mood that was partly due to the fact I was wallowing in self pity. I had come to realize that I was no longer a 'kid' by law. At heart I was and am and will always be. But the fact that I was now FULLY responsible for myself was more than I wanted to deal with or even think about (and still is).

However, with growing up comes benefits too. Small things that I'm slowly starting to realize. I'm trying to decide if the pro's of being and adult outweigh the con's. That's something that I will decide later......

I have yet to do something that only 18 year olds can do. Except for going to the mall on weekend nights and driving past 11 PM. The other night I got to see Micah (who is home for Christmas break!!!!) for just a few seconds and he asked what I had done that only adults can do. I answered with "nothing" and he quickly suggested we change that soon. I have no idea what he has in mind, but I refuse to smoke or get a tattoo (which I doubt he'll recommend haha).

Although I have wasted time the past 18 years, I feel I have done a few things right.....

Here are a few:

1. At the age of 5 I gave my life to Christ. Although my walk with Christ is something that I am constantly challenged with, it's well worth it. God is continually showing me his grace and forgiveness is every aspect of my life. I could live forever on this earth and never realize all He has done for me.

2. I have begun and maintained friendships with people who are very dear to me. I know I say that all the time, but God has truly blessed me when friends who care about me and are there for me whenever I need prayer, or whenever I want to talk, laugh, or hangout.

3. God has spared me from drama. Yes, I have had some in my life, but very little compared to many teenagers. Two things I am very proud of: 1, I've never had a boyfriend. 2, I've never been kissed. Many people would be ashamed of these, but I am very proud of them. :) Those are two things I take very seriously and am not willing to just give into.

Those are the three largest things that come to mind at the moment. I'm sure there are more but I'm tired and don't feel like sitting here staring at the screen any longer.

g'night all!

-Sara: AWAD-ee :)